The days have been horse filled immediately following the loss of Whisper and even though I dreaded them, it helped. Sage and I both had riding lessons previously scheduled that weekend, I decided not to cancel and I'm glad that I didn't.
Sage did great and Spotlight took care of her, without her worrying Mother around Sage rode with more confidence than she has in awhile.
My first lesson on Czech was good in spite of the 100 degree temps. While we worked well at a trot, Czech bucked when asked to canter and I brought him down and asked again, on the second lap he started bucking again. I stayed on without a problem but my confidence was taking a beating and my body was a bit worn out in the combo of not eating after losing Whisper and the extreme heat.
Other than choking up when I saw Whisper's name on the longe line, I was able to focus on Czech and I'm proud of myself for that. I fell apart when I had him solo cooling out a bit, he was really nice about it, he's a good guy.
It still hurts and tears brim quicker than I can prevent them. It feels like Whisper runs across my mind every few minutes. First thing in the morning, it all plays back all over again. I just miss her so much, I can't believe she isn't here.
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